My Power Struggle With Running and Exercise

Aug 23

Over the past few years, I have been happy to now that I was exercising regularly.  I had gotten bored with lifting weights at the gym and decided to go back to running after all of these years since grade nine in high school.

I set myself up a goal to go the 5k Easter Seal Run in Newmarket and began running on my own.  My first real run in years, I did a 38 minute run and even though it wasn’t extremely fast, I was proud of myself.  I then signed up for a clinic at the Running Room for the 10k distance and had a goal race to run in July on the beaches in Toronto.  I got up to training at about the 8k mark and my knee was aching.  I bought more supportive saucony running shoes and tried to continue.  The knee pain would not go away. I saw the doctor, he referred me to the Markham |Stouffville Hospital for an MRI appointment.  I also started going once or twice every couple of weeks for pyhysiotherapy to help strenghten my muscles.

I was quite disappointed when I was told that I could no longer run anymore and that it was best to wait until the MRI appointment came, which was about four months away.

I had always wanted to run a half marathon and because I was unaware of what was wrong with my knee, I figured that if I couldn’t run it, I would walk it then.  So I signed myself up for a half marathon walk in Burlington for March of 2012.  I had my MRI appointment in November 2011 and was given the news that nothing was needed surgically to fix my knee. My doctor didn’t really have any suggestions other than maybe I shouldn’t run anymore or do pyshio.

I decided to sell my eliptical trainer and bought myself a used but fairly new treadmill.  I had signed up for a web clinic for the half marathon distance but instead of the running, I was doing the walking instead.  I was even alternating running with the walking.  I did the half marathon walk in March and was very happy with myself, I walked it in 3 hours and 17 minutes. Yay!

At this point, I had already signed myself up for a half marathon run for the Toronto Waterfront Scotiabank Marathon in October 2012.  I had a brilliant idea and thought ” you know what, why not sign up for the Goodlife Half Marathon run in Toronto in May” .  So I did the half marathon run in May, finished but wasn’t very happy with my performance. I didn’t train fully and had lost a bit of interest along the way.

Based on my training efforst, I decided to sign up for a running clinic through the Running Room in hopes that running with other people could motivate me to keep going when it got hard.  That was another bust but on my end and more of a stubbourness than anything else. I went to the first session and the instructor was a 23 year old kid.  My thought was that if I am paying money for a running instructor, I wanted someone more experience who has actually done alot of runs.  During our first run, I stopped and took a break, was running too fast et cetera.  Even though he said, that between him and his mother who was also instructing the clinic that they wouldn’t leave anyone behind, no one noticed I had stopped and continued on. So immediately, that turned me off and still to this day, I haven’t gone back.  I know that it was a dumb decision on my part but I was being pigheaded.

I have a half marathon run scheduled in just over a month and have done no training whatsoever.  Recently after cottaging and no running for a while, I am gaining weight. I did not realize just how much running kept my weight in check so needless to say, I NEED to get off my butt and get moving again.  I planned our meals for the next two weeks and not as eating clean ( I realized that all the running I had been doing was compensating for my bad food choices) so I am also going to start on a meal plan for my next grocery shopping trip to ensure we are back to eating clean and making better food choices.

Oh, and I will be getting off my butt!  Wish me luck!

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